Procrastination over and Tax Return done. Feeling suitably pleased with myself, and now tackling the website….I have no techno fear, but it turns out, I don’t have any techno skills either. Nearly 2 days spent with my long suffering best friend (who happens to helpfully be an artist) and the business cards are done, domain name bought (www.totoyoga.co.uk, watch this space!!), and now to the site! Suddenly a whole host of questions dawn on me; how do I want to come across, who am I aiming this at, how do I write a sentence??? Somehow I’ve become incompetent, but I’ve never had to market myself in this way before and it’s interesting. With acting you are selling yourself, and with this, you are still selling yourself, but there must be some sort of target audience. Rationally, things are probably far more on my side with the yoga as I’m aiming the classes and website at like-minded people who enjoy keeping fit. Saying that, I always think I’m promoting myself in acting to like-minded people who want me to get a job, but my successes in acting are, as yet, untouched. I like the feeling that there are successes waiting for me to reach them…..I’ll bear it in mind, and forge on ahead with the yoga!
Despite spending 6 weeks in deep Costa Rican jungle, being back it seems I’ve seamlessly dropped myself back into the procrastination jungle that has littered my life for a while now. My values have changed; every day I make an unparalleled effort to be happy and positive, but it seems this allows me to put aside other slightly more pressing worries….I’ve temporarily had to stop answering my father’s emails with questions about whether I’ve done my tax return and how the “job hunt” is going, as I have no intention in lying, and it’s not going well. Life seems to be far too exciting and I have far too many actor/pregnant/alreadyhavechildren/strangejobhours friends that I can call upon at a moments notice for easy distraction, and then another day has gone by and I’m no closer to getting that elusive acting job or the yoga job to end all yoga jobs (I haven’t even done my website yet…). And it’s not that I’m not dedicated. Far from it, my dedication is endless as I spend hours in the gym, doing yoga, watching films and going to plays and finding out who is casting what and think how, this one time, they might go for a complete unknown to be in a West End play, and that might just be me. My dream world will soon come crashing down when I reach the end of my overdraft, which has possibly already happened as I’m slightly too scared to look at my statement. This blog itself is a tactic. “Tidying” an already spotless flat is a tactic (spotless only due to my other procrastinating days). As pictured, pretending I’ve been rocketed to earth and dropped in a field like Superman is also a tactic. And I’m almost not ashamed. Almost.